Techguy - You already know me so well. I chuckled at your closing. But in all seriousness, you are correct. I need to not get my hopes too high and not be paralyzed by fear of screwing it up either.
Thanks for giving me your insight from Retrouvaille. That helps a lot and it is very meaningful.
Carlos - thanks, no, I will not take my camera. It does not sound like we will have too much time and I think the bird watching will be enough. I am glad to be reminded about accepting his reality. I definitely have to table by desires and not let them lead me.
WIT - thanks for your kind words. I know you are having a rough time right now. Just keep doing what you have been doing.
Update:
I was surprised to receive an email from H this morning telling me he is swamped but that he "wants to do his best to see me this weekend" and offering to meet for coffee instead of gardening.
First, I was certain he would not contact me and that I would have to nudge him into meeting me.
Second, I cannot explain it, I just sense a shift in him. Cannot say more than that, it's just a feeling.
I countered his email with a proposal of coffee and a walk. He agreed.
I wish I could put my finger on what it is but something is different. Guess I'll know more after Saturday.
