Thankfulness and Perseverance

[hoosiermama]

Thanks Hoozh.

I will testify, and yes I will of course state that I called this person who denied ever saying such things. There is a bunch of that kind of stuff that is basically "my word against hers". [Because both of us are reporting on what the person said, and the person has not filed an affadavit or testified directly. It could be that the person lied to me, for example. Or I could be lying to the court. And so on. my word against hers.] There is a different bunch of stuff she has said which I can prove as false, with documents and so on. I'm hoping the judge will see everythinig as a pattern.

You might wonder, What place does this have on divorce busting bboard?
I don't know. I am still hoping for a complete reversal of her heart. A heart transplant. The things she has said on the stand -she has painted me as a truly horrible person. I would divorce me if it were true. But at last I will get to say my piece. I will testify with love in my heart, though some of the things I say, she will not like. I pray that somehow, some way, the spirit of charity and forgiveness will enter her heart.

People still want me to be angry with her. But she seems lost, injured. How could a person actually say these things? She has a ton of hurt in her heart, from her lost childhood. And that led her to want to flee the marriage, and break up the family. And yes, now I think she has guilt for her part.

Thanks so much for your prayers. I can use the strength.

You are a rare individual, Sir. You've been through so much at her hands, but you still have an understanding heart.

I'm glad you have documentation of things so that the truth will be served. As well as a pattern developing.

My H seems lost as well, although his childhood appears to be somewhat idyllic compared to most. And his brothers are quite stable. I know I keep reading that MLC is at least in part a response to needing to work through childhood trauma. But I'm just not seeing it in his history. Even at my most understanding.