Just stopping by to check in with you. Thank you for taking the time to read my last, very long post.
I always look forward to hearing from you. You have been posting to me and offering support and encouragement from my first day on these boards. I consider you a friend.
Just wanted to see what is new with you and see how you are doing.
Beth Thanks for stopping by. I also consider you my friend. We all here have a special bond, something very special. Actually nothing is really going on. I have not heard much from W until today and discuss what I should get for S3. We just remain friendly to each other, that's all. I will go the Christmas party from her family next Monday. I can spend more time with S3, can't wait. I am not even sure she will go to the party, but I don't really care at this point. I just want to see my boy. Either way, I will have a good time. I just keep myself busy and try not to focus on the R/M. It is working quite well. Whatever happen next, I just hope I am ready for it.
NW626
Me:33 STBXW:38 S:3 It's not whether you win or lose, it's how you fight the fight....!!
NW, I really admire where you are - and just how well you have detached - and how much you stay on focus. I'm glad you're getting around the site and sharing your positive mental attitude with others. I also think it's great that you're finding more ways and reasons to spend time with your son.
You will be ready for whatever happens next - you are doing all the work to move forward with strength.
Beth Thanks for stopping by. I am doing fine. Trying to stay busy and not focusing on the R/M. It looks like will be a warm sunny day in ATL. I plan to sneak out from work to play a round of golf. I pick up some toys for my S plus others yesterday. I had a hard time to decide what to give to W. At least I got the card, but nothing else. May be I will think of something later. Lately I feel little anger toward my W, not sure why. Her behavior has not change toward me, so I guess must be the holiday mode. Good thing the anger comes quickly and disappeared just as fast. Now I just feel sad for my W mostly. Knowing she still has not really face the reality and it will hit her pretty hard one day. I just hope she can handle it. So far, she seems to be happy with her decision but who knows.... As far as me, I am still moving forward and try to live my life to the fullest everyday.
Keep on moving....
NW626
Me:33 STBXW:38 S:3 It's not whether you win or lose, it's how you fight the fight....!!
I will second what Breakway said, your positive attitude is very inspiring.
As for the anger, I find that it comes and goes. It is the same for me, there is never a change in H to spark it, I just get angry sometimes. I think it would be unhealthy if we didn't. So long as it is passing and we are not making decisions based on it, I think it fine and to be expected.
You are clearly doing a great job keeping your life on an even keel and moving along. Are you still volunteering with the kids?
Breakaway and Beth Thanks for stopping by and the kind words. I can't say my attitude is inspiring, but whatever I have, I got it mostly from this great online community.
I did talk to MIL last night just for brief moment. She told me W is doing pretty good, doesn't seems to be depressed. New med is helping her and I suppose she is happy with her life now. I guess this is good and bad.... Good: She is happy and taking good care of S3. Bad: She is still with OM even he is thousands of miles away, and there is no reason for her to come back.
Strangely I feel sad and relief at the same time. I feel sad W and S won't be back and they are far far away. I feel relief because she is doing better and happier.
Fate is a funny thing....who knows what will happen next.
I just try to stay in present....one day at a time.
NW626
Me:33 STBXW:38 S:3 It's not whether you win or lose, it's how you fight the fight....!!
I am heading down to see my S tomorrow, can't wait. We should have fun in the Christmas party. My W should be there also since this is her family party. I don't think anything is going happen because I will just treat her as the mother of my S, no more no less. My plan is just go with flow, stay calm and steady.... Of course from Sandi's advice, I will make sure I smell good...LOL May be it is time to take a shower, haven't have one since Monday....
Merry Christmas to everyone.
NW626
Me:33 STBXW:38 S:3 It's not whether you win or lose, it's how you fight the fight....!!
