By the way, told Him last night as I was going to bed, that I don't doubt He is speaking to me. I am not doing this because I am a sorry sort who loves emotional pain and anguish. I told Him, I know You are with me, I felt pain that I was doubting what is in my head. It was wrong to doubt, but confusion with me is upsetting. HE told me to sleep and I did, well. I slept well because I know I am not crazy, and that I am receiving His word. I am doing what is asked and expected of me. I will start journaling again tonight I think, and each night before I go to bed. I am also going to get a weekly calendar for me and D17 and hang it so we can see our schedules. I think if I see my activities scheduled, I will feel better. I am done sitting on my ass. Actually last night, I kept bopping up and doing something, back to me again, this was after my bout with doubt. He let me go off and then told me, if you believe in Me and believe My words are there for you, then it is real.
