So I dont know what happens with me. I stress out for a little while, and then I dont care. Maybe its being really busy at work, I just dont have time to think about it at all. Or maybe its some weird hormonal thing. Right now I can wait and see what happens, and I dont feel the slightest need to try and control the outcome. Rewind 3 days ago and I was tearing my hair out. I dont understand myself!
Essie, I so relate to this (I'm so glad it isn't just me and others feel that way too!). I always get cross with myself because I always think, what was so different from yesterday??? For me I think it is because I am in a slightly vulnerable/ uncertain place (which makes me even more cross with myself as I hate feeling vulnerable and uncertain! ) plus a dash of hormones! Hmmmmm...
So exciting that you met a cute guy. That is always great for the feel good factor.
I thought it was really interesting what Ms M said about you pulling back as well as h after meetings and/ or ml as I can kind of see it from what you have written. I think it is natural as it probably evokes feelings for both of you. Don't assume that because he retreats he doesn't think about you or care. It feels as if you are both treading careful lines with each other as you both have put up walls (or dug defense trenches) that need smoothing out. How do you think you could break this cycle if you feel it exists?
) plus a dash of hormones! Hmmmmm...
