Took D17 to the doctors today, she is still not feeling well coughing like crazy. I have to take her to a specialist Ear, Nose and Throat. she has been not feeling well since all this began. Since her mother moved out. I have made an appointment for the eye doctor for both me and D17. she has been complaining of headaches when she reds for a while and we did nothing. So i made an appointmnet for tomorrow. I feel powerless to heel her. I am very concerned about her health. she is not the happy girl she used to be. This causes me great pain and sadness. W never came for her mail today, so she hasn't received her letter. FaithfulH and AmyC, i have put all the insurances right, in case you were wondering, it needed to be done today, it is. This Xmas will be the emotional death of me. No signs from my father. The holiday plans are laid out, there is bitterness in this holiday, i see it and hear it, feel it and taste it. It is hard for me to put away Xmas past, it really is. I have a hard time not slipping back, but I can't and won't. The pain it causes me is to great. I am afraid to stihl it all away, because I know then I will become out of reach and touch to too many things I love. Once I stihl it away, it can never come back. He is telling me not to wander in the past, to live for the now and create these things that are mine. did either of you have the same feelings?
