[quote] Have you continued to read the book [quote]
I have read both books now cover to cover. With regard to trust and honesty I have done this year everything the books advise you to do
1. Answered all questions - regardless of how uncmfortable they were. 2. Been an open book regarding my whereabouts and texts and emails etc. 3. Offered reassurances that I loved him dearly, listened to him, everything he needed he got. Never refused sex.
I It was while I was working so hard that he told me about the other woman. He saw it as his right to have her and he said he was ready for another woman. It felt to me like it must of felt to him when he found out about my affair. Difference is, he thinks his is ok. He sees nothing wrong with having OW . I had no idea he was thinking like that, we were still having sex, talking everyday etc etc.
I think H takes her out for dinner, drinks, sails and talks on phone to her all the time. It is so hard to believe that he chooses her over me but I have and am coming to terms with that. Since H never calls me, or offers to do family things together , I have to believe he gets so much more from her. Even though she is a nothing !
I can do no more now as H has moved out, does not call or visit. All I can do is work on me and that is what I am doing. SPM you will see I have come a lonnnng way since I first posted.
Anyways enough on that. I had my final meeting with C. She believes I no longer need her. She had nothing but praise for my strength of character, sense of humour , intelligence etc. I do feel better and i am good company again ( for the most part).
I am really looking forward to getting away on a summer holiday . Just to have quiet and reflect on my future.
Mean while if you think there is something I am still not getting please hit me with a 2x4 . I dont want to leave any lesson unlearned while i am here.
