A question. I found myself tonight, questioning what is real in my mind. I sat talking to him in my mind, wanting to know if the path I have chosen and have taken are really His desire for me or is it just in my mind? I find myself knowing this cross was a sign, of that there can be no question. I find that I continue on this path, even the the pain is very real. I am not asking anyone if they had doubted His word, i guess I'm asking if I believe it to be his word leading me down this path, holding me to my beliefs, then doesn't it make it true? If I believe I am receiving his word, if I believe which finger this ring belongs on, if I believe that seeking out someone else is not for me, then have I now received His word that commands me to stay my path. I am seeking affirmation from those of you who have gone down this road and have heard His words. It pained me to question it, but I knew the answer already. It would appear the path to Him is paved with thorns. His words to me are mine, my strength to continue comes from me, He is the source of my strength now. I came out of my shower feeling better and ashamed that I even questioned it. But it is it normal to question your actions, is it normal to wonder why we continue on as we do, without any logical reason other than , it is right to do this to know it is His will.
