Oh my gosh, Nas, I'm always so surprised by how my particular story has been replayed in the lives of others. I honestly feel as though you are right here in my shoes. Everything you said is so true, even about what I'm doing. I have begun to convince myself that she's didn't do anything wrong with the OM, and that all of this is somehow justified. But you know what? It's not justified. We took vows before God that were supposed to mean something. I don't remember our vows saying "as long as we have passion" or "until someone else comes along to reignite my passion." It's not justified. It's downright filthy and disgusting and I am just getting sick to death of it. I'm sick of crying at work, I'm sick of feeling like a piece of trash, and I'm sick of allowing her to make me feel that way. It is just so hard to detach and be friendly without beign a freind, but I definitely get what you're saying about the cake-eating and her needing to feel the loss. She wants it all. She even says we're still a family and we should still go on family vacations together. To that I must say HELL NO!!!!
