Here's an update. I called my wife and asked if she'd like to go to lunch. We get to the restaurant and she starts saying that she can't do this anymore, that she doesn't want to be my wife, that she doesn't want to be married, blah blah blah. I can't count the number of times we've had this conversation. She tells me that I'm probably thrilled that she's coming back home so that I can have her under my control (load of BS!! She has always called the shots in our life). I tell her that she made me feel like sh*t last night when she said she was moving back in but that she didn't want to and she was very unhappy about that. She keeps saying that I just want her there regardless of how she feels, but that to is BS, I want her there as my wife, to hold, to hug, to laugh with, to make love to, the whole nine yards. I feel like I should just tell her (again) that if she doesn't want me she should file--I'm so sick of these games. Is that wrong to do? Should I tell her to file again? I really want our M to work, but she really doesn't, so what's the point? I'm in a state of limbo right now, and I feel like a zombie. I have to close my office door several times a day just to cry. I can't focus on anything other than this. I just feel like I can't take this anymore.
