...wow, so another day goes by of NC... he must really have decided to leave me alone/cant face me/doesnt want to upset Helen/is happy with Helen/who knows! I'm really sad about it though.

I am writing my dissertation and in doing my research, I came across this..

"Venus and the angles between it and other planets can intensify or retard its function. Thus, Saturn square Venus, acts as a constraint on the individual's desires; this produces ascetisim or repression."

... my ex has an exact tight square of Saturn to Venus. He is repressed alright.