Well, H called me last night with a "funny" story about employee motivation. I quote funny because what H thinks is funny isn't sometimes, so I think he misusese the word. Anyway, I had shut my ringer off while I was wrapping up the Christmas stuff for D12's secret Santa and missed the call. He called twice (I love this..if he can't get hold of me he will repeatedly call) and the second time left a message saying he would call me in the morning. I did try to call back, but he was already working again. So he calls me this morning, and says that child protective services "funny" way to improve employee morale (his only) is to remind him that he is an at will employee, and that if he doesn't have four cases closed this week and two next week he is out of a job.
I listened, validated that he should call his union because to me, that is hostile work environment, and he is already working 16-18 hrs a day, Sunday through Saturday, with 36 active cases.
What really surprises me is that he is starting to turn to me again, and I really like that. I am not being pushy, or overly "helpful" although I did offer my assistance if he could use it. But didn't try to push it.
I have seen this in him before, and although I expect he will find himself getting too close again, I am prepared even more than I was the last time. No more tears, just understanding, and great faith. I know this will turn out okay, and it is a process, but I also wonder if this might be the start of him bottoming out. I hope to God he does not lose his job. But I also have great faith that whatever happens, God will see us through.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..