Ok..so YOU are George Peppard from the A-team in this scenario eh..LOL..I always liked that show..it was silly and cute and funny! "Love it when a plan comes together"
Hey, you are pretty sharp! I did not know if anyone would pick up on that or not...LOL.
Thank you all for your words of comfort and concern for me. It truly has been good medicine for my soul. It would take too much space to explain how this works on my mental/emotional state. Just know that I do appreciate your kindness and your prayers.
I am ready to take a look at whatever anyone has confidence in that works. I have had people to tell me about some things that I tried and it made no affects on me, but I keep hoping there is something out there that will make a difference. That is one thing....I have not given up hope. I may sound down some of the times and have times like Monday when I get all emotional at the doctor's office (which I hate doing), and I may have certain fears about what the future holds if I don't find something that works for me.....but I have not given up hope. I just can't b/c that is all I have right now. Okay, so now I am crying and I have to get ready for work. That shows you that my depression is still not under control.
One thing I wanted to mention.....well, maybe more than one.... Last night when I saw the home page on MSN about little Adam Walsh and watched the video and heard what his dad said, I cried my eyes out to think about what that poor family has gone through for 27 years! The dad (can't think of his name right now, but I think it is John) said that it had really been a stuggle for him and his wife and that they had been over a very rocky road......and I believe the way he said it and the way he looked at her, he was talking about thier relationship with one another. I have seen where parents lose a child in death and how it will either pull them apart or it will make them push together closer. But, one way or the other.....it will affect their M. There is a couple who have been friends for many years that lost a child and I admired them and the way they clung to each other b/c their hopes of being grandparents was all gone when that child died. They had no family after she was gone. So, all they have is each other. It breaks my heart, but yet it blesses me also to see that a couple can survive such a terrible thing. Sure puts some things in our life in perspective, doesn't it? I know that many, many of you are going through a very tough holiday season this year and my heart breaks for all of you. I know some major decisions have been made and/or will take effect as soon as Christmas is over, but I guess I just wanted to tell you that as long as you have children (and most of you do) that is so much to be thankful for. If any of us have anyone in our life that we consider a loved one, whether they are actually a family member or a friend.....we are blessed. I hope that in spite of your pain, that you all may be able to see the good things that you still have that are near and dear to you. And that goes for me too! As Tawyna said about our little "pack" not to say, "I'm sorry" (we are trying to break that habit), but I can say that I have a lot of feeling in my heart for all of you and I've never seen your sweet faces, but you are very real to me and your problems are real. I have spent many hours here on this board this past year and I do not regret one minute of it. I have been the one that learned and received so much from you all. I am talking as if I am addressing everyone on the board (here on Kristi's thread), but that is b/c I have learned that so many people will read somebody's post without ever saying a word in response. So, that is for any of you that reads this.
Kristi, I hope you don't mind me taking up this space on your thread. It doesn't bother me for people to do that b/c you can start as many as you need to.
I love you girls and guys. Hope you have a safe, warm, and good day.
Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
Last night when I saw the home page on MSN about little Adam Walsh and watched the video and heard what his dad said, I cried my eyes out to think about what that poor family has gone through for 27 years! The dad (can't think of his name right now, but I think it is John) said that it had really been a stuggle for him and his wife and that they had been over a very rocky road......and I believe the way he said it and the way he looked at her, he was talking about thier relationship with one another. I have seen where parents lose a child in death and how it will either pull them apart or it will make them push together closer. But, one way or the other.....it will affect their M. There is a couple who have been friends for many years that lost a child and I admired them and the way they clung to each other b/c their hopes of being grandparents was all gone when that child died. They had no family after she was gone. So, all they have is each other. It breaks my heart, but yet it blesses me also to see that a couple can survive such a terrible thing. Sure puts some things in our life in perspective, doesn't it? I know that many, many of you are going through a very tough holiday season this year and my heart breaks for all of you. I know some major decisions have been made and/or will take effect as soon as Christmas is over, but I guess I just wanted to tell you that as long as you have children (and most of you do) that is so much to be thankful for. If any of us have anyone in our life that we consider a loved one, whether they are actually a family member or a friend.....we are blessed. I hope that in spite of your pain, that you all may be able to see the good things that you still have that are near and dear to you. And that goes for me too! As Tawyna said about our little "pack" not to say, "I'm sorry" (we are trying to break that habit), but I can say that I have a lot of feeling in my heart for all of you and I've never seen your sweet faces, but you are very real to me and your problems are real. I have spent many hours here on this board this past year and I do not regret one minute of it. I have been the one that learned and received so much from you all. I am talking as if I am addressing everyone on the board (here on Kristi's thread), but that is b/c I have learned that so many people will read somebody's post without ever saying a word in response. So, that is for any of you that reads this. 
