I haven't written any in the forum for a while. When I read your thread, I felt compassionate with you and wanted to let you know that you are a very strong woman and loving person. And I feel very sorry for your Dad who couldn't forgive your mom.
I do now believe that everything can restore and get healed if you do follow right way. I'm not saying that I'm completely healed. I can feel your saddness of letting go of your H. I'm truly sorry. However, I do believe you will find new love if it let happen.
Is it ok praying for you? Dear Lord, please heal this woman's broken heart and put them together and make it new and more beatiful so that it can hold and emit new love to a special person and the world. Amen!