Someone on here has a quote on their profile that says our minds often lead us astray (or something to that affect) - which is to say...try not to over-think things if you can...just try to hold back and let things be - and turn some of your energy on yourself (um...I think I'm talking to myself here too...). It may be that she's waiting - it may not be - either way, you have to do the same things in terms of working on you - especially if it means finding a way to make the most of the holidays - and keeping the kids happy even in these tough circumstances.