How to know when to let go PT2????

[sandi2]

Gosh.....and to think I was trying to introduce the two of you girls (Tawnya and Kristi) over on Tawnya's thread.....come over here and there is a dozen posts back and forth already!! I love it when a plan comes together

Kristi, I am interested in what you were saying about the natural supplements, etc. I thought I had told everyone on the board by now and I'm sure they are sick of hearing about it, but I have Fibromyalgia and of course the Chronic Fatigue goes along with it. In fact, I am bothered as much by the fatigue as I am the pain of the fibro. I have to take at least 500 mg of B-6 everyday or the carpel tunnel in my hands get so bad I can't use them. I have to wear braces on my hands at night or I can't sleep. I am on a ton of medication and every doctor I go to puts me on more. My stomach is so tender from all the meds that I can't tollerate much more. My sister was into selling some very expensive natural juices and supplements that had everything that the body was suppose to need. However, I took them about three months and could tell no difference at all. It was too expensive for me to continue and it not helping. I am almost game to try anything. I do have some doubts about some of the ads I have seen on the Internet that claim to cure Fibromyalgia b/c there is no cure for it.....at least that is what the doctors say. However, I am willing to try whatever I can to just feel that I have some life left in me.

I have had a very bad back since my first child was born over 40 years ago and have taken pain medication especially since my youngest was born 38 years ago. So, figure up how many pain pills and anti-imflamatory pills my stomach had to endure before I got Fibro and added all this other stuff to it.....and you'll know that I have no lining left to my stomach. It makes taking in a vast amount of any kind of pills very hard on me. I was taking everything I heard that promised to give energy, etc., but most of it was over-the-counter due to the cost.

I would certainly look at the web site you mentioned b/c I feel desparate. I know that I need to lose a lot of weight b/c I can tell it is really affecting my physcial and mental well being. I don't want to end up spending the last years of my life unable to get out of bed. In fact, I can't lay down for very long b/c my back will begin to hurt so bad i can't stand it. That is my horror, Kristi, that some day I will be in a nursing home where they tie you down in a bed or a wheel chair and I can't get up and will be in so much pain I will be out of my mind, crazy.

Sorry, I didn't mean to get so dramatic. I have been doing that this week and I've got to stop it. I realized after going to that doctor yesterday and couldn't even talk to him without bawling my eyes out that I am a lot more depressed than I was admitting. He put me on more medication. I may have already told you this, if so, I apoligize for repeating myself. I don't think I can take it b/c I have tried it before and it ate my stomach up. I lost about three days of work b/c I was in such a mess. But, he wanted me to try one more time....taking smaller doses. It worries me the amount of drugs that the doctors have me on. In fact, I was on so many anti-depressant meds that my mother and H think that that had something to do with me getting involved with the OM over the Internet. But, I can't blame medicaton for my responsibilities. I knew what I was doing.....even if I was a little crazy.....

So, any information you want to lay on me.....have at it. I'm all ears. And, most of all, it means so much that you care. Outside of my family and you that are my friends here on the board.....I get no concern from anyone else. Not that I'm looking for it, but it is nice to know someone cares.

Talk to you later and hope to hear about all of this soon...okay?

Sandi