Hi Ali, Well, the last time I asked him to dinner, he said sounds good. Then the next day, he went & filed for D & never got back to me about dinner. I looked at the online court records to find out he filed. He's a people pleaser - he will say yes & then not follow through - unless he really wants to.
No, about my parents - I'm saying I've acquired from them a strange sense of loyalty. I fell in love w/my H the 1st time I saw him in 95 (he was M then - so off limits for me), we dated in 2000 (after he was D) & he left/ran away & then in 2002 we became best friends. So you might say I've been waiting for him since 2000. I thought he has grown up. He did not.
What I'm saying is I should probably drop the rope & left him go. I don't want to - but emotionally, how we handle things communicate - it's just not good for me. Ya know what I'm saying?
How do I feel about D?? Well I'm torn and afraid. I want my life back, my freedom - but I want my H to enjoy that w/me.
Me39, XH45 Kids 3 dogs, 2 cats Divorced 6/4/09 Tricky thing is not how you live, but how you live with yourself. (POTC)