As ever, I totally feel where you are at. You were saying something that really resonated with me, about how wierd all of this is.. if only they could acknowledge that they had made a series of choices that had resulted in hurting you so much...
It IS wierd the way things unfolded, for you and for me. And then to not really give us any chance at all, then or since. I mean, also, it is cruel.. and its so easy to get stuck blaming oneself. I too can get into some pretty repetitive obsessing. My friends are also very good at pointing out that its not us, its them... I could see this to be true earlier, when I accidentally found some old emails from my exBF. Wow. They were so eloquent and warm and forward looking, saying how wonderful I was, what a great catch.. they were all from a week or two before his Dad went into the coma.. then, everything changed.
I dont know if it was that that made him leave me, but it was a huge catastrophe in his life and at the bomb, he did say the past 2 years had take a huge toll on him. I dont know what change caused your W to up and leave.. but I thikn perhaps age and the stuff to do with.. I havent had kids, I'm 42.. now what!?
I'm sure you are a wonderful catch, that one day she will look back and think...oops! What did I do that for! I dont expect you to replace her for a while (as I wont my ex) but I am sure good things are on the horzion for you...
By the way.. you're not a Piscean are you!? Or a water sign...
Thankyou for your kind supportive words on my thread, as always Al xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
