BG, it is you and me kid. We are forever linked. Kel, I have learned much from you, and your spiritual view, and taken long looks at your gentle but differing (from me) point of view. Thank you for that! MT? You out there Dorothy? I hope you are ok sunshine. I borrow a part of your sweetness every single day.
Ok, I made it home. H is out hunting and my BFF is coming over soon to help me put up some tree decorations and split a bottle of Champagne to celebrate by freedom from the radiation doc.
We are supposed to get snow this evening. I think I'd like it if the ground was blanketed in white when I get up tomorrow. I am kicking myself into the Christmas spirit, and centering myself on this special Holiiday time.
I am tired of the sadness and pain. I WILL take care of myself. I am stronger than my H knows that I am. I am going to stop feeling sorry for myself and crying over what has been destroyed. I'm going to count instead the good things that I have left, and the new things that I have found. I have wasted enough time on his ups and downs. I have given him almost a year for his "after shock." That's enough.
No expectations with him. Center myself. Enjoy my life and be thankful for all of my blessings.
I hope that everyone has a peaceful night.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
