I screwed up again

[AnotherNightmare]

Thank you for your insight, techguy and Beth. As a matter of fact, I have been thinking about separation myself. What has held me back is our exchange student who will leave on Jan 5 and my job situation that I am trying to change, but it will take some time. I still travel 4 days every week, and I do not want to set a precedence with her taking the kids, because I cannot handle them. But maybe with her taking the kids for the 4 days I travel and me the other 3 days, it might work. Need to think that through. Anything you can add?

The other option I had been considering was to file for divorce myself, but I abandoned that, simply because I want to delay it as long as possible. I believe time works for me, not against me.

The other thing I just happened to find out is that W is meeting with a female friend of hers today (by now they are probably done). She is divorced and currently dealing with a messy custody battle with her WAH (the whole nine yards including PA). On the one side, I hope this friend is going to confirm for her that she has no chance taking the kids with her to Germany, on the other hand she might also give her the picture of living alone and living alone with the kids.

AN