Wow !!!! more than a week since I last posted on my thread, I guess I'm still brooding over my birthday last week. I'm not big on birthdays, in fact now that I'm past forty I'm not really that fussed, could quite easily forget them. And it wasn't the fact that W didn't buy me a card from her or D7, I just got this feeling from her attitude that she didn't really care. I mean last year she went out of her way to buy a card and a present even though we weren't talking and she was ****ing with OM. Overall I have this feeling that something is missing in our R but I can't quite put my finger on it.
With all the above in mind I did a little test and respond, I kinda dropped the rope, adopted a more, lets say reserved attitude, and went a little bit dark on W. Well her response was quite interesting, instead of asking if there was anything wrong or inquiring about my well being. She just responded with the old anger and nit picking which hasn't been seen for a while, infact it was quite funny seeing her go out of her way to find something wrong and try to pin it on me.
Well at the moment I'm a bit tired being the one twisting and turning to keep this R going, I haven't put any effort in this week and I just got anger, when I work my butt off we only just stay on an even keel. So I am gonna have a think about how to move forward cos I've got to keep going in that direction. I was seriously thinking about bailing out but my divorced friend at work convinced me a D is not a good option , my only option is to keep persevering.
On a positive front I bumped into one of the guys from my GAL activities from last year and he's promised to hook me up with all their activities. So I gonna get back out and find me cos I was in danger of slipping into becoming a babysitter, housemaid and bill payer all the things which turned W away from me.
