losing my sanity...

[hope3343]

T2L, will go to the other site and work out a Plan A. At this point I have nothing to lose. Your right the love bank will be in recession soon.

journaling,

Goals
1. try to keep positive thoughts just for today
2. Spend 1/2 hour talking with D15 and stay connected
3. Thank H for stopping to see D15 today at home and bring her
lunch.
4. Go to OW's desk and beat the h3ll out of her (just a joke
trying to see if anyone will notice this one!)
5. Try to put a Plan A together and keep it going

Today is a cold one in Tx. Winter coats are out and actually needed. H surprised me today by going to visit D15 during lunch and bring her lunch. When I blew up the other day about communication, coparenting etc I think it might have had a slight positive effect on him that he was not following through with what he had promised. H also told me that he received his paycheck and was going to the bank and see how he can transfer into our acct so I can pay bills. I thanked him for "taking care of it".

I am going to meet with 2nd L today for advice. Supposedly he is the best in this town (I guess that means expensive). I hate this stuff but I need to be ready in case. I also have read many sitchs where D's are almost final and the WAS has their awakening. I can only pray.

Need advice

First, work Christmas lunch is being held on Thursday, I signed up and making lasagna and now i see that OW has signed up also. When I had the argument with H I told him to tell her not to attend and H said he can't tell her what to do. (H is not going) In anger I said I then cannot be responsible for what I say then. I do not want to back out of this lunch. How should I handle it that day? What I would like to do is expose them (I can't), take her pie and dump it on her head (I would get fired), so I need some viable advice on how to handle this! I do plan on making one portion size of the lasagna (H's favorite) and just leaving it on his desk. I know OW will have a fit if she stops to see him. teehee.
Help.