Guys sorry I have been gone for a few days but had to take a much needed break. When I couldn't even keep my eyes open to talk to my BF in the evening for five min, I knew it was time. I was in emotional overload. I am better now. Much better. Have journaled, talked, slept, cried, and aired my dirty laundry to the people who needed to hear it and am good now. Won't take this long in the future. Was planning on coming back yesterday but just decided I needed one more me day.
I think i have caught up with everyone, MT you locked so I won't say anything until you get new thread except love you.
Hope-you need to find your center. I know it is very hard. I know you expected/wanted him to just be sorry and make you feel better. Unfortunatly, as you probably know, the A was just a symptom of what he is going through so even though he has come clean on that, he still has stuff to go through and only he and God know what that is. Or how long it will take. You have the strength to do this. I think it was good to watch the movie, I actually liked it but I know a lot of people who didn't. So we won't discuss that. Just focus as much as you can on the holidays, keep the PMA for the sons and the grandbaby and then after the holidays you can deal with it.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
