Congrats on your good doctor news! That's gotta be a relief eh?
How do you get bullied into watching something you don't want to see? Why would H want to watch 2 guys.....???
It's hard for me to know what to say to you without knowing what you say to H or he says to you. You mention R talk but no specifics other than it is hurtful. Then don't do R talks. At least not now while it is still so painful and H is just using you to release himself.
Take time to get past the acute stage of finding out about the PA. Let H know if he can't help and support you then leave you alone until he can man up about it. The flip side of that is you cannot keep wigging out at him in a rant whenever it boils to your surface. Find another way to vent and get it out of your system. Find forgiveness if you want to move forward together with your H.
(((1hope)))
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
