What is wrong with me? I know better. I guess I thought, hoped that his confession would purge all of the pain and confusion.
I thought that we would be getting back to normal. H wanted R talk today, and now I feel crushed and broken. He is so negative and the things that he said were so hurtful.
I am so tired of hurting. I need to get back to my center. I need to find my positive place.
No more R talks. Happy and positive me, guarding my heart from whatever crap that he has going on in his head.
Ech! He bullied me into watching Brokeback Mountain with him last night... something that I have refused to do. It made me sick and I only made it for about an hour. I think it was a control issue, but it really hurt. I came apart this morning.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
