I did read it and have detached. It is only recently that I started wondering again, past week mostly. As I don't hear from, about or see her, it has been easy. I am focused on me, I know from what you have read it may not sound it, but nothing I do is for her benefit. I occassionally miss her, but after 31 years, it is to be expected. I am doing the things I do now, becuase they need to be done and they are things I want done. I have not done one major thing in my life since this that is for her to see and run back. They are things I need to do in order to keep my sanity, and my hoppe and strength alive, so I can be a good father, and friend to those around me. So yes, I am detached pretty much, mostly. I think as my anger has began to disappear I again wonder what she is thinking. I am not angry anymore, and I know what I want to be doing. Yes I would like her to know about me now, she doesn't know me or who I am. And yes I believe God will show her these things in time. But I miss her at this time of year and I already suffer from the holiday blues since the death of my Dad. This just adds to it. I know I fade back every now and then, but I am who I am because God intends me to be this way. I am good with that, trustme.
