I have looked at many things, last night I was trying to fal asleep, but realized I haven't seen her, really talked to her and feel bad that she is not seeing what I now see and what everyone else sees.
As you went on to say....your W "sees" you in many ways. Some of these ways, God will provide and you won't even be aware of them until much later (maybe even never). I think your biggest opportunity right now is to DETACH! Did you read that link I sent you? If not, here it is again: What is Detachment?
Most of what you write is focused on your W and what her reaction will/should be. You need to focus 100% on you and your kids. You seem far to focused on doing things because they might win your W back. I thought Detachment meant giving up on a person....it is EXACTLY the opposite. You detach so they can grow without you interfering...and ironically, detachment is the MOST loving thing you can do for a loved one. You and your W (and probably your kids) are finding your way back to the REAL source of love....God. In the end, your love for each other will be stronger for it!
Praising God Daily, Remaining "FaithfulH" Me: 62 W: 62 D:33 S:30 & 31 Married: 40 Years BD: Sep 2006 Piecing: May 2007 2nd BD: May 2014 Working On It: Today