God grant me the patience and the strength...9

[theotherhalf]

mwg, when my H has been staying here. I really honestly have not said ANYTHING. I don't know why he goes. Nothing I can pin point here that would make him go. Unless it's her. Or something in his own mind. Its been after he goes that I lose my composure. That I question and pressure. Knowing that I shouldn't and yet it happens. No exuses except that I am weak.

Like yesterday. I talked to him in the am then let him alone the rest of the day/evening. N14 had a BB game. I normally would have called him. I didn't. He didn't come. This morning I wake up. Watching to see if he'll come. I want to call him. I don't. Then he pulls in the drive. Went to the shed, then left. I imediately dial the phone. It's like a drug. Wave it in front of me and I can not stop.

I have got to figure out a way to let this man go!