H stayed for an hour. He started the discussion with "tell me what your problem is?". I dont know what to do, it is frustrating, that's all I know.
Anyway, he said he feels it's a matter of timing, he has...patience, I dont. He understands why i dont have patience. When I asked him what can he do, if he can step up his rythm, he said he could. He said he would give me all he got, strength, patience, love, everything I need. But it is my decision if it is enough or not.
He repeated he loves me. He wants us to go away together and see how we will be under relaxed conditions. He wants me to go with him on Friday night at en event of the newspaper (actually the mngt will go out). He said when he mentioned I may go they were all surprised. But he said he told them before I said I am done.
We talked about the future, he sees no way out of his work sitch for the time being. He tried to make me see his point of view and how what I want is not possible (time). Then we talked about his work, news etc.
We didnt decide anything. I didnt say I am going away with him, nor Friday but I think I will. You know, he does love me. In his "quiet" way, he does. I have serious doubts it will be enough. And I wonder if I will find the courage to "lead" him and train him... We'll see. For now, I will just wait. K
