Thanks everybody. I got up this morning at 4:30 and prayed for my husband. I think I finally understand that I can not keep or restore my marriage unless I let it go completely. I have given him and the situation to God and I continue in my faith to him.

I also prayed for all of my friends here. You have been the wind beneath my wings when I thought I would sink to the ground and never get up again.

Holy hannah, I just checked my email and found this:

I can't stay here. Coming back to the house. Until I have funds to stay somewhere. We love each other and consider each other best of friends


I replied:

No. No you are not. If you come back I leave.

I do love you. It is now time for you to have what you have been asking for. I understand that I can not restore or save this marriage. I have to let you go.

I will never forget you and maybe some day I'll be over you. I know I can not heal while you are here.

WTF!!!!!!!!!

I told him if he really loved me that he would go. I even gave him money to pay for a motel room. If he can't stay with his parents then he has to find another alternative.

I've drawn a line in the sand for my sanity. Lord give me the strength.


Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08,
S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012!
Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.