Making my own good karma!!

[Silent Chrleader]

Thanks, {{{YR}}}.

You have no idea what a special support you have been to me. In my RL, there is not one person who understands how I feel, or my desire to hang on.

At least my H has agreed (with the kids as witness) that we will sell both houses (including the "ranch") to make the split "easy" at least financially. I have told H that I will get an apartment for me and S17, so H can live in the house and do the work that needs done to get the place ready for sale (won't that be fun for him!). I also told H he needs to call and get the "ranch" put up for sale tomorrow. He said he would....

I'm going to get the ball rolling tomorrow to open a bank account for myself and make sure my bonus goes in there so I have control. I told H that since he's the one that wants this, he has to take over the logistics of it. I'm sure he won't appreciate me segregating my money, because he didn't do that, but that's too bad. He's the one who wants out, so he can have the discomfort of having to ask me for money.....(is that a mistake do you think?)

H did come home this evening with me to meet with the kids and hear what they had to say (without the C there). Kids spoke calmly and H listened but didn't comment. Just sort of "I accept that's how you feel...."

I also talked to MIL, whom H has not talked to but I have kept in touch with. Told her to let family know I love them and always will consider them family.

So, I'm giving H what he wants. And I'm thinking I better up my AD (I already have approval from my Dr.). Because right now, I'm feeling pretty frickin' suicidal! Better living through pschotropic pharmaceuticals!!

I HATE THIS!!!!