I asked about the ring because it feels awkward on my other hand. a strange thing happened Saturday night. My youngest grandson reached for my ring on my left hand, I showed him it was on the right, and he wanted me to take it off and kept touching my left hand. From the mouths of babe's
Did revelation 12:11. He has shown me that my strength is thru Him and that my family is my light. That I will overcome all the evils and commend myself to winning this battle.
I know I can't do it alone, it is the lesson He is teaching me, He is showing me that forgiveness will set me free of this. Once i feel the compassion and the wholeness that I can forgive, then I will know that I know. I feel the calm helps me, it gives me a feeling, can't describe it, but a feeling that pushes all others away. It comes and goes when I am sad and confused, but it does come and calms me everytime. I know it is Him that comes to me and whispers in my ear, that this pain is because of my non-faith in believing i can forgive. I am working on it and I am seeing things, as I have said, that make me believe that if He could forgive those that tormented and crusified His son, then I can overcome this.
The ring is moved to its rightful place, my eyes are full. I believe I can forgive if she can see His light in me. Yes, AmyC that is the way I also believe that she will see Him, now, is thru me. I am full of Him now, not preaching, but enlightened with the belief and hope of His love. Yes He loves me, more each day I feel. Because now I am on his path, the path that I wanted to be on, but couldn't find.
Yes, sexual, sorry. But it was strange to have that thought of her. did try to research the daydream to get an hint of why and what meaning. It is too daunted to meaning anything now. Hoping for the repeat. God is looking at me here, in my house. He sees me here, thinking tonight, sitting and being tired, exhausted. No ambition to do too much, but resting. For doesn't the weary man need to rest by the edge of the river and bask in the glow of God's good graces. read that somewhere, I think. Yeah, I have the light and fire of God's love in me. I look forward to having her see it and understand what it it is.
I wanna thank you again. I don't get to talk to too many people this way. they think I'm out there. But I have really seen too many things int he past 2-3 weeks to not believe it is God who is moving me and that the negatives are the other one trying to drown what I see. It is too strong of a feeling not to be God. Too strong...And I do cling to him at night when I sleep, knowing that tomorrow will be a little brighter and better for me.
