"... I was thinking how can I get mad at someone for not giving something he doesnt have? If he had "it" I could get mad. But he doesnt. Not now at least ..." You know he does not have "it" yet you demand "it" ... and you are getting mad and driving him mad too. This is a bottomless pit, a black hole, a strong evil force ... the one the WAW falls into ... my W got sucked in ... K, FG's last post - exactly my reading too.
BTW what become of your visit to the monk on Dec13 ?