Well it is hours later and I think I wrote the above post in anger and I dont really feel that. I am so explosive.
I think also I analyse, make more of things than they really are. H has moved on and thats that. I should not make more of it than that.
Sounds so stupid when I think - " Oh he looked at me blah blah blah.
I have been working on my responsibilty in all this ie my affair.
I can understand how hard it was for H to see the car I met OM in and the phone etc. I understand how he needed me to get rid of those. Also every week H had to watch our daughters play netball on the courts where I used to meet OM. That must of been gut wrenching. It was good that he put the kids needs first here.
i also understand how he does not like our home , I did meet OM here once but in a spare room on the bottom floor. It was not a planned meeting , OM just turned up and wanted to .... It was a non event and lasted all up probably 5 min but enough that our home became tainted.
But our kids live here and nothing should come between a parent and the kids. I know no one would stuff up my relationship with the kids.
i suppose if there was OW , then H should be happy. I cant keep on hoping that i will win him over. I saw and learnt that the grass was not greener on the other side but that was my lesson.
Than you for all those that helped me through the good and the bad. Through my venting and through my angry words. lots i did not mean in hindsight but felt at the time.
