Its that time of year.....

[a new 2moro]

not much youre right. except ive pretty much come to grips with it....now i either want to live in a sexless marriage destroyed by an affair or i dont. I guess my expectations were too high that things would get back to normal soon. everyone said a yr to 18 mos right? is that when they move home or after they stop sleeping with their affair partner...we all know there is a 6 month lag between the two.....

MC...under the guise we cant afford to....well partly true i guess. but gee how much is the M worth i guess..huh. He thinks well work on it together....well weve done such a bloody bang up job so far.....why not?

H has always been a chicken with head buried in the sand hoping messes would go away...solve them selves.....really i dont think there could ever be intimate relations between us again. He likes to hold my hand at nite watching tv cuddle and hug ..kisses always stop at that point.

ive lost the deisre at this point....ive convinced myself its because i cant be or wont be as good as she was. pick a reason....face it im not 26, im not attractive, none of those things.

so who knows, he says he loves me and this is where he wants to be....