I am not sure how I feel about the gifts. On one hand I can use the financial help....and on the other hand, how can I find time to shop for our kids when he can't. I also don't think H knows our kids. Even though d13 made a list, he doesn't know her like I do and know what to weed out. He was thinking of giving s16 money....but I know s16 prefers gifts to be picked out. He has plenty of money from working. If he does give me the money for what I bought there are a few more things I can pick up....and if not, it is not the end of the world.
So, H was by on Saturay and told me he would talk to me about it. He said it was up to me. If he brings it up again, I, however, will let him decide. He said he never made decisions in the marriage and he still passes the buck to me to decide. Last year I told myself no more....he is a big boy and he can make decisions. Look how great his decision to leave was. S16 not speaking to him, financials a mess, and so on.
He once again was quiet on saturday. Did a lot of texting on his phone and abruptly left. He didn't come to d13's meet on sunday as he called her to say he had to work. She said she didn't care.
H brought a tree by saturday. Left it for us to decorate but we have not had time with swim meets and work. Maybe tomorrow. He has not mentioned the holiday and where we will be spending it. I know he will not be at Christmas eve so that is not an issue....and I wonder what he will do about Christmas day. Should be interesting.
I am off for 2 weeks starting monday and can't wait. I will take time to straighten the house a bit for the sale. Not sure when the house will be on the market, but I will do the bare minimum to help as H is doing nothing. I will de-clutter and clean....and that is it.
H is having his medical procedure the first week of jan. I still don't know what for....and have not asked. I will sit back and wait for the info to fall into my lap. I
I have to say, over the past few weeks it has been easier to not think of H. He is lost ....and I think he will be lost forever. Can't come home as it would admit he was wrong. I think to him it is easier to keep running to MOW than it is to fix things.
Anyway, off to take d13 to practice and then pick up a few things I need for christmas. Almost done with my shopping and if I have to say so myself I was quite a great bargain shopper. Nothing better than a good deal.
Take care Snodderly. Thank you for always being there for me.
