Hey guys.. Kalni.. no seriously! Not without the need for surgery
MrsM...very much so, my therapist said that his low self worth and self-hatred didnt feel it deserved the loving acceptance I showed him, so he rejected it/me. He did tell me he feels worthless, dead inside, so it makes sense, although I dont understand it! She said he sounds severly depressed and like he is not behaving rationally this year (like not letting me have his address, yet calling me most nights).
To exacerbate my sitch.. I found out something serious about his real self, hidden from everyone, at the 6 year mark and although he then went for C.. I dont think he can handle me knowing, as he needs a lot of therapy to get past it and he hasnt as yet. And he found it upsetting to talk to me even.
Mish.. I just have a lot of compassion and yes, love, for him not only becuase of what I know and his Dads death.. but because he made me very happy and was a loving kind partner. I cant fall back on any "I'm better off without him" thoughts, but I am without him. No, I wouldnt date! Falling in love is ok though
He didnt reply to my email today. I went to the shops and bought myself some flowers..
