Hi . . . I try to carry on with my life . . . I made cookies and set up my tree. (tough without him) I know that my goals are being met, even if they are very small ones.
Update:
1.) Before Thanksgiving, 'A' ordered blinds for his condo through me. 2.) One half of his order came in. 3.) I did something different...since I am taking a few days off, I txt him to tell him that he can pick up the order without me with him, if he wanted. a.) Usually, I would tend to want to do everything to try to be there to see him. Lately, I have purposely tried to show him that I respect my own independence. 4.) I still hate all this stuff. 5.) Lately, I have found out that he surprises me. 6.) The times in between talking to him are very tough. 7.) I miss him.
Even though very slowly, things are changing for the better. I am having a tough time because my parents have been struggling with health issues. It makes me feel very sad and very alone.
