The lady in the office across from me is the mother of a girl I went to highschool with. Well, she got engaged this weekend and I am finding myself having a hard time with all the wedding talk. A really hard time. You would think I would be ok with it since I have been in THREE weddings post bomb...I have lost count as to how many I have attended post bomb. For whatever reason it is really getting to me. ...Like to the point I just want to go home.
I am afraid that I have let myself become a little cynical. I don't want to be bitter or cynical, but it seems I have let myself go there.
I feel myself wanting to reach out to xh. I know that no good would come from it so I am refraining. He is happy in his life now and doesn't want to hear from me. His myspace page says he is "smitten". I know I shouldn't look, but sometimes curiosity gets the best of me. I just don't understand how he could be so messed up with me and now in a seemingly happy R. It is almost like I WAS the cause of his problems.
