Me too Michelle, but you know it comes and goes in waves. This time, though, I am at peace, because I have a little more informaiton on what I am dealing with, and that makes me feel better. The other thing is that I have finally come to accept the decision I have made, which is not to walk away. I think I struggled with the "what if" for a long time, and figured it is easier to just leave the what if up to God. Besides, in the meantime, I am enjoying my life, ;\) looking forward to house hunting next month!!!!!

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..