Very strong - and it's just so great to read about you finding your self-respect again - so very important. Pay close attention to what Amy M said - as dropping the rope does bring an intense peace at first - but it is followed with what I suppose is the grieving process - and it will test your resolve - but you can do it - I know you can just from how you approached your H. Hold on to that self respect, Tawnya...taking care of yourself and your kids - that's the gift you are giving yourself.
