thx for your friendship and willingness to reach out to me with kind thoughts and words and prayers. Your all great.
I am slowly emerging from my grimace. It is always slow with me. If it wasn't for the dang airplane I would be very statue-like and fixed in place like a tree. A nice tree but a tree nonetheless. Immovable.
SG - I really appreciate the prayer ..it will compel me to get back to my own..time to end my 'strike' as He so wishes me to.
off to chambers (as if a chief justice) only for far more important matters.
Pray on it all. Take back 'ground' for the Lord. devil is a wimp! A conniving & supreme trickster but definetly a wimp to be swatted aside through prayer and the armament the Lord dispatches to you by His mercy and grace.
Oh one other thing which marked the return of some peace and tranquility for me last night just before checking in early after a couple of Scotch over rocks and some PA draught micro-brewed Railbender Ale. I had it placed upon me by The Mightiest One to pick up the phone return to the higher path by calling my sweet and beautiful darling to continually extend the 'olive branch'. So in short and sweet fashion, I gave a simple apology and mentioned that I was struggling on Sat and was being an ass. Then I told her that I called cuz I was thinking about her, hoped she was well and that she would get a good nights sleep. I love her so darn much. She is part of me and I don't like parts of me 'harvested' involuntarily and certainly not when I still have much to do with my parts.
It is much like waiting on the wating on the fog as I am accustomed to doing on some morning before I have the required visibility to go fly safely. Any one got a Real BIG fan!! lol
I finally got to read your thread..funny, before I hopped over here, I never figured you for a "move slow and steady" (to win the race of course) kind of person..esp one that flies..I bet THAT is a cool feeling
{{Tomato}} I agree with Craig who said you are totally allowed to blow it occasionally..and you apologized cause you knew it, I hope she accepted your apology, but, even if she didn't, if you did it with the right heart, YOU did your part and, if I know you, you will learn from it!
I hope your fog is lifting today?!
Tawnya
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I finally got to read your thread..funny, before I hopped over here, I never figured you for a "move slow and steady" (to win the race of course) kind of person..esp one that flies..I bet THAT is a cool feeling
{{Tomato}} I agree with Craig who said you are totally allowed to blow it occasionally..and you apologized cause you knew it, I hope she accepted your apology, but, even if she didn't, if you did it with the right heart, YOU did your part and, if I know you, you will learn from it!
I hope your fog is lifting today?!
Tawnya
Hi T
A quick note in response to your wondering how my darling rec'd my apology. She seemed rather receptive to the call in general and the apology. I loved hearing her voice. The simple things the Lord lets me in on. That made my night. I kinda figured it made her's too. AM I conceited or what. A lttle boastfulness mingled with a little truth perhaps.
I know she loves me, cuz she makes no bones about that (did I just say that..oh well). I love her as I will never love anyone else. She is my beautiful darling. I miss the eye contact with her baby blues. I will have to pray that I will be seeing them real soon.
See yaz I literally gotta run to the plane so it has a pilot.
Rest well. Extoll the virues of our Almighty God. Be God fearing in all you do. And cherish His continuous, unceasing outpouring of love in your life. Be thankful and grateful. He is King, we should want it no ther way.
Peace and prayers that your struggles will cease and you will attach yourself to the Lord's perfect plan for your life.
I only wish that my darling operated even half the time as I have done (in 180 fashion). And by that I am referring to my not resting on my thoughts and compulsions to reach out to her. The old me used to let many an ocacasion slip by the way side and take for granted that she knew I was thinking of her, love her or anything under the sun like that in terms of simple communication. I have really noticed that change in me & I am pleased with it.
This is just screwed up. Especially now that the thought just occured to me that maybe in the past she was perhaps better at this then she is choosing to be now. So While I am busy acquiring new communication mechanisms and tactic and using them maybe she is heading in the opposite direction.
I guess she needs time to get it all figured out. I hope that she is in fact renovating of her personal inventory ..making shifts and alterations. It is claer that to a certain degree (maybe not a solid enuf degree ??) I have done some of that myself. I have always been a self aware kind of person.
Probably doesn't do anything good as far as increasing the odds that my phone will receive a call from her with all of the tremendous amount (and I mean tremendous)of guilt that is associated with the moneys that she owes a bunch of people including me. People in large debt have a way of doing the phone dodging thing I have noticed.
Oh well, the Lord is working on hearts and turning drives and wheels and cogs, etc ..even as we speak. His ways are mysterious only because we are 'natural' human beings with extremely finite understanding. May the peace that is personified in Christ be your's
