the rope is fraying now #10

[Babygirl]

brrrrrrrrr its cold, down in the negative teens with the windchill overnite and this morning. the stove is having a hard time keeping up.

calm weird weekend. H never brought up the email as he told me we would talk about it.
tried to work on xmas shopping for the kids this weekend, found a really cool thing I wanted to get them ALL, even the ow's other son, asked H how many to get he said 3, I said not 6? he said you have 3 kids. that hurt, he wouldnt do any shopping or looking for his son or his 14 yo d. not with me.
yesterday was her bday, i dont think he talked to her, but who knows. i am sure he did saturday as he was at work, so they either did by phone or email. I told Kel yesterday, he best not by her CRAP as all the money we have at the moment is literally mine.
this morning, he calls and says we have to figure out xmas, so I can go be with my son, not we, not us, not even his mom. she is not going to budge on that at all. it still makes me scared that with so much of the truth is what she has told me, that the part of him leaving and divorcing ME soon as xmas is over is true too. of course, the weekends are always better as he isnt near her, today all day, they are in the same building. guess we see how it goes today.