I feel the same way. There are times, however, if he stops by my office and I am walking out, I catch him watching me walk towards the car. He looks away really quick as if he is embarrassed he was caught watching. I agree, it is not just MLC. I do some some of the characteristics, but also think that the PTSD is the underlying cause.
It is H's birthday today, and D12 and I called him and sang a horrible rendition of Happy Birthday to his voicemail (neither one of us can sing...lol). I hope it gives him a moment of laughter this morning.
I feel like I am doing the right thing now, keeping the lines of communication open, being kind, and offering to help when I can. He actually called me on Friday, just to chat a minute, and I thought that spoke volumes. He did use an "excuse", I had asked him a question on behalf of a friend, and he wanted to know what the outcome was, but after that we just chatted for about fifteen minutes. It was great!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
