you are so lovely to gallop over and check out my idea! Rrreally, you don't think it is too crazy?????
today is totally crazy busy... I am going to meet this special bag-designer to buy christmas presents, then I have a meeting with my teacher where we "discuss my future" (stressful) and then I have commencement (if I realized it was going to be a four hour time commitment to go to commencement I think I might have NOT bought a cap and gown) and then I have to go home and pack... and then I leave for the airport tomorrow morning. I could barely sleep last night, I just had a lot of anxiety.
Should I try to call him today? Just briefly, somehow squeeze in a light, friendly invite via phone? Should I do it over phone, or try to get a message to go straight to voicemail?
He told me himself he is "really free" today, tuesday, and wednesday... he has no rehearsals for the christmas concerts and is just hanging out in Maine.
It also depends on whether or not I can move my cello fix-it appointment from wednesday to friday... or I could just skip it?
I also realize that I keep bringing up how I want to "talk to him about my future because I am really confused." I realized yesterday that the last time I remember telling him I wanted to "talk about the future" it was when we were together, before I left Boston, and I wanted to make a plan as a couple for how we could stay together while I was in atlanta for grad school. So I wonder if me pressing him to talk about MY future now, is making him nervous, or reminding him of that? Though I think I've made it pretty clear that I just want some advice on my career.
I am thinking something like, "Hey, I just realized that you're going to be in maine, and I'm going to be in boston. do you want to meet up in maine for lunch or something on wednesday? If you're busy I totally understand. It would be great to see you!"
Am I just trying to make my life complicated now that things are finally settling down????
