Good news? My mom may be coming home on Wednesday. I need to meet with the doctor... Bad News? Wife's hard drive on her computer died. She is taking it in today to get it replaced. She did not back up any of her school stuff from it so hopefully the will be able to retrieve it... (so much for x mas presents) also I was informed yesterday I will be getting a 10 percent pay cut due to the economy...I have not told wife yet. Everything seems to be hitting the fan at the same time. I do think I will have some relief though after the letter. I am so tired at waiting for everyone else to be in a good place before I state my needs. I could send you what I have so far..
Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Saffie,Ya are going to have to wait until I get home. It's in my laptop in my car. PLEASE comment on it and let my know what you think so far. I am covering alot of issues Including some of my feelings and thoughts that go through my head. Yes there is stuff about the Om even though I know he is not an issue in my sitch. The thoughts of him in my head are things that I am dealing with and I do want wife to know how and why some things said, done and seen affect my thoughts and moods.. I am stressing that these are MY issues that I need to deal with. I just sent Wife a e-mail letting her know about my pay cut..
Later Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Check your mail. I know this needs to be done. With everything going on and Wife being really nice to me it is going to be hard to "rock the boat"
But there is not "a right time" right?
I want to finish this letter and send it this weekend. I am not going to e-mail it. I am going to put it into an envelope and write "do not open until after finals"
Later Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Well on the home front. Wife is being nice again. Her Computer hard drive died. Dell is giving her the run around and she keeps calling me to vent her frustration. (This is good). Also her friend called yesterday when she was out. I talked to her a little about nothing really. She did mention that wife did e-mail her about my pay cut and was worried if wife was even more depressed. I said no she was taking it well. Her friend then mentioned that wife did tell her about my Mom. I took this as a positive, wife mentioning something that concerned me to her friend. And that was about it. When Wife got home I told her to do what ever it took to get the computer fixed. I said "guess that will be her Xmas present." (Money is short). she Said "ya I guess so" She mentioned that what she wanted was new speakers for her stereo Sooo today sometime I may stop by best buy and "burn some plastic" and pick up some speakers. I asked wife how this was going to affect her Finals. She said all she had left was a paper she had to write so is should be ok.
Now for my Mom...
She is so excited about coming home. Me I am a little sad I am losing my "retreat from reality" (her house). I have tried to tell her that she should not get her hopes up too high because it still depends on what the Doctor says today when we meet. But she still had me take EVERYTHING home with me last night when I went to see her. (Except her P.Js and clothes to wear home).. I realized this morning that I will need to go buy food and things for her when she gets home. Her refrigerator is empty..
Daughter living with Bum....
Well she still "loves him" and does not want to move to grandmas to help out.
Other daughter living with bum..(But at least he works)
She has been made manager of the Round table Pizza she works at. She also moved out of bum BF mom's house and into a converted garage paying rent.
My son....
He is doing ok. I finely convinced him to turn around his "not making any baskets" at the play offs into something good. He was so afraid that every one at his school was going to make fun of him. I told him just to tell them. "Hey do you know how hard it was to not make one basket and still get a trophy?" (There were only three people in his age group so the 1, 2 and 3 place were a given)
My Dog Nellie.....
Well she is the one that no matter what I do she is so happy to see me when I come home.... she runs up to me and gives me a lick. Wife got a little upset with her last night though. Wife made son a burrito for dinner and he placed it on his computer desk and then went to get something he got today to show me.. And when he got back..... Yep...It was gone and Nellie was the only "person" in the room....
As for me????
I am ok. I am getting ready to put everything out on the "table" I think Wife and I are in a good place. I am ready to move on if Need be. I think Wife has seen what I have become and she needs to make a choice if that is what she wants or not. The New Year is approaching and I am ready for something New...
Maybe a vacation to the Uk? Saffie or Texas..Yoyo...
Dr Love
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
