Wow man. Thanks for the inspiration. At this point I can say that God can only soften her heart. She is very confused. I talked to her yesterday (which I shouldn't have) and told her that she needs to think about what she is "supposed" to do, not what she "wants" to do. She said that she was confused because they were the same thing. I tried to explain the difference but got no where. She keeps pushing how Christian she is. She has been going to church often and even wants to go on a mission to Africa. I told her the God hates divorce. She diagrees. She said that God is telling her to get a divorce. That scares me. I tried to tell her that God would never tell anyone to get a divorce except maybe in very extreme circumstances that do not even come close to what we are dealing with. She quickly got aggrivated and moved on. I have checked out Rejoice Ministries. There is alot of good info on there. FamilyLife.com is another good one.
I understand the journey that lies ahead. I am scared but prepared. I would do absolutely anything I can to make this work without a question. If by some grace of God she some how looks deep in her heart and realizes what is going on and shows me a sign of hope I will know I am on the right track. I am so fearful right now because she is so numb towards me. She just wants me out so she can move on.
I know what you mean about those times when you look at them when they are sleeping and fear life without them. No matter how good or bad it was at the end of the day I could still reach over and kiss my wife good night. I could have never imagined giving that up.
M 27 W 26 M 4.5 Years T 6 years Bomb Oct. '08; "ILYBIANILWY", "You don't fit into my life", "Our marriage had to have been a mistake because it is not working".
