Kristi, you stay on the board as much as you need to. This will be hard with your anniversary and holidays coming right behind it. That was thoughtless of your H to do that little number on you. It is as though he wants to do something so you can be sure to see him and get him in your mind so he won't lose his "place" there. I know that ticks you off and it would me also. There is just no easy way around this or through it. But getting friends to be with so you won't be alone is the best thing. I know it seems as though everyone has a partner at parties, but you are just starting out. People who have lost their spouse always feel that way when they go anywhere there is a lot of folks. They feel like a fifth wheel on a car. It just takes time. Believe me, you are not the only one that does not have somebody right now. If you could find a buddy to go with you to these parties, it would help you not feel so out of place. Even another lady would at least help you not feel so alone and you'd have somebody there to talk to when you felt all the "couples" were nose to nose in dancing or conversation.
Just come here as much as you want and vent all you want to. We are here for you.
Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
