It is the lack of contact that pushes me to creat oppotunites. I know that one of my goals is no contact but it is hard. It is getting easier i will admit and next week i go away with kids for 2 weeks and there wont be contact.
I suppose my fear is ' out of site, out of mind ' and i have not given up on the possibility that H has got himself into a situation and he is not sure how to get out of. I suppose I just create these oppotunites and watch.
H in operating theatre as we speak. i will go and visit because I think it is the right thing to do. How he views it will be seen.
