Is she is or is she ain't (my baby)?

[sleeper]

Every once and a while screw up and do something right. Well, I'm certain every once and a while I screw up.

I took kids to x's house this evening. We'd had no contact since Thursday evening. Monday or Tuesday I had suggested we have dinner together as a "family" on Sunday nights to alieveate communication problems. X said it was a good idea at the time but had not mentioned it again. I had begun to think it would only facilitate cake eating (family and single life too).

I called and asked if I could bring the kids to her. She said yes but was pressed for time as she wanted to pick up a prescription before the store closed. When I dropped off kids OM (they are Siamese twins now, never apart) was there.

As I was leaving she mentioned she thought we were having dinner together. I said, "You never mentioned it again and it was 5:30 so I didn't think it was going to happen." She then asked if she could have the kids Christmas Eve and Morning. I responded, "Are you doing drugs, _______?" As I had made this offer earlier in the week in a text message. She mumbled something and then made excuses that she wanted to be sure because she hadn't eaten Thanksgiving dinner with them and wanted to have lunch with them Christmas day. I responded, "You could have eaten with them Thanksgiving if you wanted to." (she was out of town with OM at his parents). She kinda grunted like she couldn't believe I said that and I responded, "Well, you could have, I would have let you have them." (I have never kept the children from her no matter the situation in all this). I ended the convo by saying she could have the kids as I said before but I wasn't sure she could have them as long as she was asking because plans weren't yet finalized with my family. She pressed a little more and I responded, "I'm not saying you can't have them that long, I'm just not totally sure of my plans yet and I don't want to commit to something and then go back on it."

She looked tired/stressed and mentioned weather warnings and that she had to get her perscription (she pays full tilt as she has no inurance now) and can't afford to miss any meds and make herself ill. Severe weather and illness are two of her phobias.

I felt my "are you on drugs?" comment may have been a little too dry in the humor dept and cocky but I resisted texting an apology. I felt I was generous about kids for xmas without being a pushover. Although refering to the fact I would have let her have the kids Thanksgiving I believe she took a double meaning as she chose to be out of town with OM eliminating any possibility of her eating with the kids.

In one fell swoop I managed to cancel a family dinner date with my X on very short notice while necessitating her telling OM she was having dinner with me and the kids and as a bonus I indicated she's acting like she's on drugs and pointed out she chose to be with OM over her children on Thanksgiving.

The really neat part is I didn't plan any of it.

Dumb luck or just plain dumb?

"Hello darkness my old friend.
It's good to see you here again."